Trials.....

It's been a long week.  Tonight I held Hannah at bedtime while she cried as her heart was breaking for two young boys... and her own father and I had no words to console her.

Last Sunday brought news that a former colleague had been murdered by her husband who then ended his own life.  Their young sons were 
in the house. Poppet being close in age and tenderhearted has felt an immense burden for the boys.

Also on Tuesday we received the results of Mike's biopsy.  Three out of the 12 samples they took are cancerous. His Gleason score was 7~
fairly aggressive. So it has been a long emotionally draining week.  On Wednesday Mike had a bone scan since he has had some persistent lower back pain to see if it has spread. On Monday he has a CT scan.

Twice this week I have been asked by my children now...why doesn't God just come back for us.  Cody has not had a good week pain wise and so after Wed. nights study of Ezekiel he said, " I just wish Jesus would come for us I'm tired of being in pain and now worrying about dad....".  Hannah's question tonight "if God could let something that bad happen to Miss Amanda then what will happen to Daddy?" And me I finally cried.

All week I have been fighting crying I think I was afraid if i started I might not stop. That and I really hate losing control... and if I'm crying I don't feel like I'm in control.

So we could use your prayers.  And I'm clinging too and encouraging my children to cling to the fact that although we live in a fallen world full of evil,  sickness, and pain that we are only still here because God loves us so much that He is still drawing men unto himself and the promise "In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith--of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire-- may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory, and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed " 1 Peter 1:6 & 7