Well I bit the bullet and sent Cody's application to the NIH. Praying now that he will fit into a genome study. I know that we still might not find a definitive answer however its a new avenue to pursue. Next week we will start a new semester... ready to leave this last semester full of pain behind and start a new fresh semester. Rachel left on Sunday to start her new semester at Eastern University. Hannah, Lucas and I are just keep plugging away. I was reminded this week of a quote by Elizabeth Elliot, "Waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one's thoughts." I long to wait well and not grow weary but, waiting well is a challenge. How does one wait well?...when things don't make sense? Trust. Reminding ourselves of God's past faithfulness and remembering that He never changes builds our trust. He is faithful even when I am faithless. Just last week Luke started OT again and I had just about given up hope... just two sessions and we are beginning to see improvement. I'm very grateful because his vestibular issues had become overwhelming were causing my head to spin. So what have I learned this month? Waiting and trusting is a process that although difficult is rewarding. And it's worth it to trust my unknown future to a known God. Cody with new little cousin
2012 ended in a whirlwind. November and December brought on a seemingly never ending flare for C. Working part-time, homeschooling and managing all the medical needs of our household along with the holidays stretched me fairly thin.
I don't know about you~ maybe it comes with being a mom~ but I'm a people pleaser and I hate to say no if it's going to disappoint someone. But life at the hectic pace it was in these last two months... did not afford me the opportunity to say yes to everything. The hardest part was telling myself its okay to say no. Lately I have been feeling stretched super thin... I actually forgot Rachel and Lukes's eye appointment even though they called and reminded me a couple days before..ugh! I am trying to streamline appointments and school schedules just to survive. In the midst of all my distress at not being good enough at all this mothering stuff God spoke to me and reminded me I need to rest more in Him. Because I cannot do this on my own and I don't have to... He is right there waiting for me to ask for His help.
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13
