Braver than you believe...

   The past two weeks have been bittersweet.  The younger two have been getting things together and setting up their school spaces. Lucas and I have even gotten a jump start on lessons since the books arrived last week
and this years courses are loaded onto the online school we use. 

   I have started a new job and my school year starts the same day as

Hannah and Lucas's does. I had three days of training last week and three 
more this week... so we have had ups and downs.

   Anxiety has reared it ugly head several times...it has been challenging

and we haven't even had the first full day yet. But Lord lead me to this 
clip tonight. Its clip that makes me more than a bit teary. As my little guy

(yes, I know he's taller than me, but he'll always be my little guy) is
nervous about doing things without me and I am grieving that I can't be 
there all day with he and Hannah.

I thought maybe someone else could use it as well.

Blessings!

My youngest daughter reminded me its time for a blog post.  :)

Quite honestly I have put off posting because I don't want to come across as whining. So often lately I have just wanted to whine. Like a little kid who crumples on the floor and who is crying its not fair.

I ran across this quote a month or two ago by Skip Heitzig  and the truth behind it sustains me. "The storm didn't last forever, and your storm won’t either. Trials, difficulties, storms are seasonal—they are not 
perpetual. God knows  what you can take. God knows when He should 
show up. God knows when the deliverance should come—and it will." 

As much as I and my kiddos thrive on the routine school gives us, I enjoy 
the summer break from deadlines etc,. We are still learning its just a bit 
slower paced and more self directed.

This has not been a summer that has been lazy and enjoyable. This summer there have been no refreshing vacations and time away. This has been a summer to "get " through to survive through if you will. It's been a stormy season of life. It has been important for me to remember that it's just that a season. To remember that we have weathered storms in the past, that God has been faithful, and  He is STILL faithful, we shall weather this one as well.

But we are still in the midst of a storm and storms can be very scary to
experience. There is a fine line I believe in being honest about your life,
carthartically sharing if you will and over sharing. So I will spare you the
details of our storm. Suffice it to say medical and financial issues are at 
its root. And if you are a reader who prays for us we GREATLY appreciate
your prayer support.

We still have Cody's kidney issues to resolve, we have a plan of action
(sort of) and just need the opportunity to get it started. How is it he is
going to be a junior in college? When I started this blogging he was in 
middle school...

Our Rachel has started her 'real' job as  a college graduate and we all
know how scary and exciting that can be. We are so very proud of
her accomplishments and the way she purposes to do something and 
does it.  When she was little I would have said she was headstrong but 
maybe determined is a better way to describe her. She is such a blessing!

We will get through the next couple weeks. This season will end and a new one will begin. The challenge will be taking what we learned from this season into the next.